I’ve been thinking…

A few things have been bothering me about my blog of late.

I think it’s mainly due to the fact that I’m writing ‘full time’, and I suddenly find myself with a structured output for the majority of my work-related content. I find myself frowning a lot when I get sent pitches or content for this blog. As is the standard moan for most media, it’s actually not because the content isn’t relevant, it’s because it’s so perfectly targeted – that I’m a tad restricted.

Since I started this blog, it’s been organically focused around social change; from my projects at G20, to Global Cool and the rest. It’s not to say that I’m all of a sudden not interested in these areas, I just find myself wanting to be a little more flexible with what I write here. That is, after all, the point of having a blog in the first place.

Take NaBloPoMo for instance. I didn’t particularly get on well with the concept of such a regimented schedule – but I might have found it easier had this place been a little more open.

So in the spirit of a new year and a new start, I’m stripping out the boundaries (which I’ve probably put in place internally, rather than publicly). Silly though it may sound, this is a big step for me. I thrive within structure, and I respond well to some kind of focus at least within my work.

However, c’est la vie. Let’s see what happens.

Why I'm not at COP15

In short, I should be. I finally got semi-accreditation at the end of last week (in the form of an NGO pass no less), but as is always the issue, logistics and red tape have been the only prohibiting factor in gaining access to the summit.

Oxfam once again invested resource and time in sponsoring me to attend. Without being part of a large news group or agency, it’s almost impossible to get in as a blogger without this. They’ve always been very good at providing this support without expecting specific coverage in return, which gave me a lot of freedom at the G20 summits in London and Pittsburgh.

The accreditation process for COP15 raised the usual issues, the first of which was an online form that timed out after a few minutes, making it a veritable race to complete before you got thrown off the site. Then, like Pittsburgh, when some of the bloggers under the Tck Tck Tck banner (the group that represents a wide variety of charities) weren’t approved – we were asked to re-apply, putting NGO contacts down to signal to the UN that we’d be attending under their approval. When I found out that this process had been closed, as the accreditation team had approved TOO many media, journalists and NGOs than the venue could actually hold – without even processing governmental staff yet – I threw my hands up in despair.

I decided then not to go, as I didn’t see the point in adding to the estimated 41,000 tonnes of “carbon dioxide equivalent” that will be emitted “for the whole conference including travel to and from Copenhagen”. I didn’t get accreditation for Pittsburgh either, and spent a lot of the time in the official offsite media centre. It was fine, but I found it frustrating as I could have watched the live feeds on Sky or the BBC from anywhere.

Even though the majority of world leaders only flew out late this week, lending my input for Copenhagen while back in the UK is proving to be tough. I’m led to conclude that actually, though being there but not BEING there was irritating to me, being in the local vicinity meant that I was still plugged in. I could still talk to the other delegates, media and observers for a different opinion. Whatever people might say, sitting in a room with someone that can answer a question vs. blogging from the other side of Europe with relatively little external input is a very different thing.

I’m disappointed that even though time and time again, online journalists and bloggers have proven themselves to be vital in providing a diverse range of viewpoints, it’s still incredibly difficult to get an appropriate level of access. I’m not asking for a free for all, but I haven’t seen any input on what’s happening at COP15 from any perspective other than major broadcasters or NGOs. What I’m really missing is what this means to the average person on the street, and an opportunity to influence or ask questions as the summit happens. 

A few lessons from NaBloPoMo

I didn’t do very well at NaBloPoMo. I lasted for about two weeks, posting a short piece every day, but then I hit a wall. It wasn’t that I couldn’t find anything good enough to write about, it was simply a matter of time.

I’m not really sure why I attempted the project in the first place, I think I was just curious to see if I’d learn anything. In fact, I really have.

I went through what I’d assume is the typical cycle for anyone attempting one of the various video/blog/novel projects that happened throughout November: proud that I got through the first week, naively thinking it would be fine to put it off till the last thing I did during week two, hating that I’d agreed to do it and resorting to posting photos on week three, then utterly exhausted/skipping it entirely on week four.

The purpose of National Blog Posting Month from the organiser’s perspective seems to be encouraging creativity among bloggers, but I actually found the opposite to be true. I’m a firm believer in the fact that creativity can’t be forced. It can be encouraged, through inspirational surroundings or such, but when I signed up – I’d made a commitment. Maybe that says a lot about my own character, but I couldn’t look at it as anything else.

It became a bit of a chore. All of a sudden I wasn’t enjoying writing for my blog, I was resenting it. Maybe it’s because I’m a writer during the day, and produce a lot of content that fits into an editorial schedule. Therefore, having one at home as well didn’t suit me?

Perhaps it was the sheer volume of it all. Since I started this blog, I’ve been setting my times and places to write for it – and I’ve never felt tied down. Or perhaps it’s just as simple as placing priority on what pays the bills over what doesn’t. You can be utterly in love with a subject, but if you’re exhausted from a day of work, it makes no difference. Whereas some people may have responded well to the project, I wonder if it’s those writing their blog full time that found it more useful – instead of those that treat their blogs as a secondary output.